sad times occassionally come to every person. times when you feel you're left alone. when you think everything in this world is against you. ur mind is so clouded with the thought of sadness that you tend to forget the "other" things that could make you happy.
why do we think like this? why is it that when we are sad, we tend to forget other things? it always seem like the only thing we're thinking is that we are sad, lonely. but in fact if we just set our minds clear, we can see things that we did not realize were there all along.
maybe its because we are not sure with what we really want and what really makes us happy. or we are afraid that we'll lose that happiness again once we find it.
so how do we deal with this? personally i am not sure how. but one thing i know is you have to try to understand yourself. try to dicover what makes you happy and what makes you not. and another thing, for me, happiness starts with our contentment. i think that people who do not get contented with what they have will have a difficult time making themselves happy. some things are not always given to us, and often times things that we want are the things that we cannot easily get. we get disappointed if we do not get these things.and not getting these things makes us unhappy. its ok if you make a challenge out of your failure to get what you want. but you should take into consideration if your effort is worth the fulfillment you'll get once you achieve or get what you want. is the fulfillment you get because you got what you want? or is it, you were fulfilled just because you overcame the challenge? If it's the latter, then maybe you should assess yourself. you might just be looking for a happiness that's short lived. true happiness is one that you carry with you always. not just for a brief span of time.
There are some things that we take for granted just because they are always there. often times we neglect these things not realizing that they might be the thing that could give us the happiness that we are looking for. we should open our eyes to such things. these things are those that we realize the value only when they are not ours to call anymore. good things really come from where we least expect them to be.
happiness is really hard to find. but it is not impossible to have. all we need is just a little self discovery. and a good start with be learning to be contented with what you already have. happiness starts with contentment. enjoy what you have, learn to accept everything that comes your way, and be thankful for even the smallest thing that you recieve each day.
Friday, November 26, 2004
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
a cup of hot latte
sitting on an empty corner table
holding my hot cup of milk coffee
never minding the flurry of people
fighting against the buzz of voices around
the sweet aroma coming from my cup
mixed with the unmistakable scent
of cigarette puffs from different mouths
make up the fragance of the area around
giving the surrounding a blank gaze
watching the 'scraper lights turn on and die out
savoring the occassional breeze
of the warm and fuzzy night
i take a sip of my latte
with a lighted cigarette on my other hand
i screamed as the coffee touched my tongue
ang init pa pala...
t@#%-&nang yan!!!
holding my hot cup of milk coffee
never minding the flurry of people
fighting against the buzz of voices around
the sweet aroma coming from my cup
mixed with the unmistakable scent
of cigarette puffs from different mouths
make up the fragance of the area around
giving the surrounding a blank gaze
watching the 'scraper lights turn on and die out
savoring the occassional breeze
of the warm and fuzzy night
i take a sip of my latte
with a lighted cigarette on my other hand
i screamed as the coffee touched my tongue
ang init pa pala...
t@#%-&nang yan!!!
Monday, November 22, 2004
Bestfriends? Nah... Bring back the past? A BIGGER NAH!!!
I am not bitter. Let me make it clear. I just felt the need to right something about this. A few things had happened these past few days that pushed me to do this.
She was my girlfriend for 4 years. She was my bestfriend then. She knew all my problems. We shared every joy and pain. We knew everything about each other during those times. She was the only person that i can open my whole self to. We spent most of the four years building a very strong bond with each other.
Everything seemed perfect for a very lasting relationship. Or mayber not. Never had it crossed my mind that we would end up parting ways. And never did i think that the reason we would break-up is because of another guy. I hadn't had any clue what happened then. And i can't imagine what i did that made her fall for the other guy. No clues, no hints, i just woke up one day finding out that it was not me anymore.
I was devastated. I was in shock for quite a time. I was in pain after realizing that the person i spent 4 yrs with, the person that i called my girl, the person i considered my bestfriend, has slipped away from me.
I spent a long time trying to recover from what had happened. I took me a while to accept that things are over between us. It was very hard for me to let go of the feeling. It cost me a lot of sleepless nights trying to convince my self to move on.
I went on with my life. I finally accepted everything. And slowly i'm becoming happy again. The hurt had faded away. The wound was all healed. And i've already found someone i can share my life with again. I am happy again.
Then out of nowhere. There she was. Telling me she misses our times together. Giving hints that she wants to come back. Telling me that she misses her "bestfriend". I can't imagine calling her my "bestfriend" anymore. I left that behind when she left me. How could i consider someone my bestfriend if she hid things from me, moreover hurt me. I can't. I can never call her my bestfriend anymore. Not today, not in the coming days, never. Yeah, she's still a friend. But that's the farthest it will go. There's no chance of me coming back to her. No way. I was hurt, i was destroyed. And now that i have rebuilt myself, i won't be going back to that person that shattered my life. I didn't fix myself just to end up going back to her. No. I've moved on, and there's no turning back. What happened had happened. It wasn't my choice, and it won't be my choice to get it back. There won't be anything in this world that could make me accept her back in my life. Not a thing.
I feel sorry for her. She chose a life where she's not sure if she's happy or not. I feel even more sorry for her that it's only now that she's realizing the things she did. I'm happy now where i am. I've found someone who's more deserving of my love. I know that this someone is the one whom i will love for the rest of my life. I won't let anything take my happiness away from me. Not even someone whom i used to call my "bestfriend".
Friends is the best we can be. I cannot consider her my bestfriend anymore. And i cannot let her enter my life again, because what she did is forever etched in my mind. I've forgiven her, but the thoughts of the things she did still wander in my head. Never will i allow myself to be in that situation again. And never will it be with the same person who hurt me.
The door to my heart is forever locked for you
Still the windows of friendship are open
But don't expect the best window you can find
For those windows are only for people who i can truly trust.
She was my girlfriend for 4 years. She was my bestfriend then. She knew all my problems. We shared every joy and pain. We knew everything about each other during those times. She was the only person that i can open my whole self to. We spent most of the four years building a very strong bond with each other.
Everything seemed perfect for a very lasting relationship. Or mayber not. Never had it crossed my mind that we would end up parting ways. And never did i think that the reason we would break-up is because of another guy. I hadn't had any clue what happened then. And i can't imagine what i did that made her fall for the other guy. No clues, no hints, i just woke up one day finding out that it was not me anymore.
I was devastated. I was in shock for quite a time. I was in pain after realizing that the person i spent 4 yrs with, the person that i called my girl, the person i considered my bestfriend, has slipped away from me.
I spent a long time trying to recover from what had happened. I took me a while to accept that things are over between us. It was very hard for me to let go of the feeling. It cost me a lot of sleepless nights trying to convince my self to move on.
I went on with my life. I finally accepted everything. And slowly i'm becoming happy again. The hurt had faded away. The wound was all healed. And i've already found someone i can share my life with again. I am happy again.
Then out of nowhere. There she was. Telling me she misses our times together. Giving hints that she wants to come back. Telling me that she misses her "bestfriend". I can't imagine calling her my "bestfriend" anymore. I left that behind when she left me. How could i consider someone my bestfriend if she hid things from me, moreover hurt me. I can't. I can never call her my bestfriend anymore. Not today, not in the coming days, never. Yeah, she's still a friend. But that's the farthest it will go. There's no chance of me coming back to her. No way. I was hurt, i was destroyed. And now that i have rebuilt myself, i won't be going back to that person that shattered my life. I didn't fix myself just to end up going back to her. No. I've moved on, and there's no turning back. What happened had happened. It wasn't my choice, and it won't be my choice to get it back. There won't be anything in this world that could make me accept her back in my life. Not a thing.
I feel sorry for her. She chose a life where she's not sure if she's happy or not. I feel even more sorry for her that it's only now that she's realizing the things she did. I'm happy now where i am. I've found someone who's more deserving of my love. I know that this someone is the one whom i will love for the rest of my life. I won't let anything take my happiness away from me. Not even someone whom i used to call my "bestfriend".
Friends is the best we can be. I cannot consider her my bestfriend anymore. And i cannot let her enter my life again, because what she did is forever etched in my mind. I've forgiven her, but the thoughts of the things she did still wander in my head. Never will i allow myself to be in that situation again. And never will it be with the same person who hurt me.
The door to my heart is forever locked for you
Still the windows of friendship are open
But don't expect the best window you can find
For those windows are only for people who i can truly trust.
Friday, November 19, 2004
searching for the answer...
Why her, who just came out of nowhere?
why her, whom i don't know much about?
Why choose someone, i'm not sure i'll get along with smoothly?
Why did i choose that someone?
I know she came into my life so suddenly. I honestly didn't expect things to go where i am right now. I am also asking myself when, where and how it all started. Things happened so fast that i didn't have time to absorb and reflect upon the events that happened. I'm finding it hard to answer when asked with the questions of why her. It's not that i am not sure of my feelings. It's not that i am not sure where i am right now. It's because my mind is still trying to keep up with the things that's happened and still happening.
But, why her, really? I started thinking. I went back to the very first day i started being close to her. I looked at how we ended up being with each other.
One thing that stood out was the satisfaction and fulfillment i always have whenever i am able to make someone happy. It has always been fulfilling for me whenever i see that i can make someone smile and laugh. And there, comes the feeling of appreciation. I'm sure everybody will be touched if one sees another person appreciate the little things he do. The appreciation she showed really touched my heart. Seeing her smile in happiness everytime i was near made me happy. It created a very satisfied feeling inside me.
She grew close to my heart. I saw that she was so much better when she can smile and laugh genuinely. It slowly grew on me that i hated seeing her frowning. I didn't want seeing her sad. It saddened me when i don't see her smiling.
Hours and hours of talking gave me the chance to know more about her. I was able to listen to every word she said, every thought she sent, and every feelings she showed. I connected with her. I know she felt the same way. There was never a dull moment when we talk. Even in silence, i know our minds are conversing with each other. Its such a nice feeling having someone you could talk to for hours and yet feel that you've only been with each other for a very short time. Time would pass without us knowing or noticing that time is leaving us behind.
I also felt that she needed someone who can give her the happiness she's looking for. I felt that she has always been looking for that true happiness. The happiness of having someone she could call her own. I believed then that i can lead her to what she's looking for. I could see her brighten up whenever i'm around. i could make her smile. I could make her laugh. Despite her pain, i could see her showing hints of cheering up. i knew i was slowly lifting her up from where she was slumped. that's when i realized i'm starting to fall for her.
I once promised myself, that i won't fall in love again until i'm sure that it would be the last. I wanted to have someone who can think the same. i wanted someone who has the same sentiments in life with me, the same aspirations, the same dreams. someone who can share her life with me, be it happy moments or sad ones. i wanted someone whom i can talk and listen to the whole day without getting bored. someone i can spend the rest of my life with.
I found it in her.
Now that i'm with her, i'm slowly understanding why i chose to be with her. And i know my decision will not be a wrong one because i can see in her eyes that she's happy. And i know that we're both aiming for the same things in life. and that we're both happy in each other's arms. and that we're sure that we'll remain with each other for the rest of our life.
she came into my life so sudden
Before, she was just someone i pass by
Without as little as a hello or a hi
A weak smile
is the best i gave or recieved from her
She was, as the saying goes,
just another face in the crowd.
Never did i imagine that one day
that some day
she'll become a part of my life
why her, whom i don't know much about?
Why choose someone, i'm not sure i'll get along with smoothly?
Why did i choose that someone?
I know she came into my life so suddenly. I honestly didn't expect things to go where i am right now. I am also asking myself when, where and how it all started. Things happened so fast that i didn't have time to absorb and reflect upon the events that happened. I'm finding it hard to answer when asked with the questions of why her. It's not that i am not sure of my feelings. It's not that i am not sure where i am right now. It's because my mind is still trying to keep up with the things that's happened and still happening.
But, why her, really? I started thinking. I went back to the very first day i started being close to her. I looked at how we ended up being with each other.
One thing that stood out was the satisfaction and fulfillment i always have whenever i am able to make someone happy. It has always been fulfilling for me whenever i see that i can make someone smile and laugh. And there, comes the feeling of appreciation. I'm sure everybody will be touched if one sees another person appreciate the little things he do. The appreciation she showed really touched my heart. Seeing her smile in happiness everytime i was near made me happy. It created a very satisfied feeling inside me.
She grew close to my heart. I saw that she was so much better when she can smile and laugh genuinely. It slowly grew on me that i hated seeing her frowning. I didn't want seeing her sad. It saddened me when i don't see her smiling.
Hours and hours of talking gave me the chance to know more about her. I was able to listen to every word she said, every thought she sent, and every feelings she showed. I connected with her. I know she felt the same way. There was never a dull moment when we talk. Even in silence, i know our minds are conversing with each other. Its such a nice feeling having someone you could talk to for hours and yet feel that you've only been with each other for a very short time. Time would pass without us knowing or noticing that time is leaving us behind.
I also felt that she needed someone who can give her the happiness she's looking for. I felt that she has always been looking for that true happiness. The happiness of having someone she could call her own. I believed then that i can lead her to what she's looking for. I could see her brighten up whenever i'm around. i could make her smile. I could make her laugh. Despite her pain, i could see her showing hints of cheering up. i knew i was slowly lifting her up from where she was slumped. that's when i realized i'm starting to fall for her.
I once promised myself, that i won't fall in love again until i'm sure that it would be the last. I wanted to have someone who can think the same. i wanted someone who has the same sentiments in life with me, the same aspirations, the same dreams. someone who can share her life with me, be it happy moments or sad ones. i wanted someone whom i can talk and listen to the whole day without getting bored. someone i can spend the rest of my life with.
I found it in her.
Now that i'm with her, i'm slowly understanding why i chose to be with her. And i know my decision will not be a wrong one because i can see in her eyes that she's happy. And i know that we're both aiming for the same things in life. and that we're both happy in each other's arms. and that we're sure that we'll remain with each other for the rest of our life.
she came into my life so sudden
Before, she was just someone i pass by
Without as little as a hello or a hi
A weak smile
is the best i gave or recieved from her
She was, as the saying goes,
just another face in the crowd.
Never did i imagine that one day
that some day
she'll become a part of my life
Thursday, November 18, 2004
thoughts...
suddenly, a thought came to me
where am i right now?
where am i going?
I started thinking what i want with my life
i started to think seriously
what tomorrow has in store for me
i know, tomorrow is what i make
with the things i do now
i realized now
that i should have started
thinking this way a long time ago
but, i can't blame myself
for doing so
i enjoyed myself
i was happy with the things i did
i don't regret anything i made of myself
because those things i did
helped shape what i am right now
i learned a lot of things
every experience i had
are tools i can use
to start building for tomorrow
so comes the question again
what am i going to do?
what do i want of myself?
where do i see myself one, two, ten years from now?
its best to start thinking right now
its a must to start right now
i should start planning
i have to layout a path for me to follow
i have to set goals for me to achieve
and most of all
i have to be serious now
i have to focus on what i really want
time cannot be taken back
that's why i have to do this right now
this really is the time i move on
to another chapter of my life
its time to end being a boy
and time to start being a man
I'm definitely at a crossroads right now. I just hope i make the right decisions. I also hope there's a bright future ahead of me. I just want all my dreams to come true. I really should start working my way to making all my dreams become a reality.
where am i right now?
where am i going?
I started thinking what i want with my life
i started to think seriously
what tomorrow has in store for me
i know, tomorrow is what i make
with the things i do now
i realized now
that i should have started
thinking this way a long time ago
but, i can't blame myself
for doing so
i enjoyed myself
i was happy with the things i did
i don't regret anything i made of myself
because those things i did
helped shape what i am right now
i learned a lot of things
every experience i had
are tools i can use
to start building for tomorrow
so comes the question again
what am i going to do?
what do i want of myself?
where do i see myself one, two, ten years from now?
its best to start thinking right now
its a must to start right now
i should start planning
i have to layout a path for me to follow
i have to set goals for me to achieve
and most of all
i have to be serious now
i have to focus on what i really want
time cannot be taken back
that's why i have to do this right now
this really is the time i move on
to another chapter of my life
its time to end being a boy
and time to start being a man
I'm definitely at a crossroads right now. I just hope i make the right decisions. I also hope there's a bright future ahead of me. I just want all my dreams to come true. I really should start working my way to making all my dreams become a reality.
Saturday, November 13, 2004
let her go
i know its tough to accept.
i know it's difficult to understand.
but she decided to move on.
give her a chance
to be where she wants to be.
give her the opportunity
to get what she deserves.
give her the happiness
she has been looking for.
it's not her fault
that she's where she is right now.
think
that you were the one who led her there.
everything happened so fast.
but there's no regret.
because she made the right choice.
let her go.
let her be happy.
let her see what you were not able to show her
let her have the chance to love
and to be loved
let her find what she's truly looking for
let her be in my arms
i know it's difficult to understand.
but she decided to move on.
give her a chance
to be where she wants to be.
give her the opportunity
to get what she deserves.
give her the happiness
she has been looking for.
it's not her fault
that she's where she is right now.
think
that you were the one who led her there.
everything happened so fast.
but there's no regret.
because she made the right choice.
let her go.
let her be happy.
let her see what you were not able to show her
let her have the chance to love
and to be loved
let her find what she's truly looking for
let her be in my arms
Friday, November 12, 2004
Thursday, November 11, 2004
To someone very special
tonight i'll put an end to this pain
tonight is where all this will remain
this craziness should have a stop
this pretending should have an end
tomorrow will come with hope for me
tomorrow will put me out of this misery
this will all just be a memory
a part of my life's painful history
tonight, i'll cry it out loud
tonight, i'll pour it all out
i know, i have to get this over with
coz i promise myself, tomorrow
tomorrow, i'll live
i have to give tomorrow a chance
coz tomorrow's my only way out
i have to leave all the pain behind
for having this will just keep me blind
i just hope tomorrow's promise is sincere
i hope tomorrow makes everything clear
but tonight i have to bear in mind
tonight should be the last time
that's why
tonight, i'll cry it out loud
tonight, i'll pour it all out
i know, i have to get this over with
coz i promise myself, tomorrow
tomorrow, i'll live
there's no reason to keep the pain
there's no reason to cry again
but tonight i have to bear in mind
tonight should be the last time
that's why
tonight, i'll cry it out loud
tonight, i'll pour it all out
i know, i have to get this over with
coz i promise myself, tomorrow
tomorrow, i'll live
I wrote this for someone very special to me.
I wrote this to give her some sort of inspiration. She was so down that time.
I wanted to give her something to lift her spirit up, to give her a push to end her misery.
I hope she found some meaning in what i wanted to tell her through this poem.
tonight is where all this will remain
this craziness should have a stop
this pretending should have an end
tomorrow will come with hope for me
tomorrow will put me out of this misery
this will all just be a memory
a part of my life's painful history
tonight, i'll cry it out loud
tonight, i'll pour it all out
i know, i have to get this over with
coz i promise myself, tomorrow
tomorrow, i'll live
i have to give tomorrow a chance
coz tomorrow's my only way out
i have to leave all the pain behind
for having this will just keep me blind
i just hope tomorrow's promise is sincere
i hope tomorrow makes everything clear
but tonight i have to bear in mind
tonight should be the last time
that's why
tonight, i'll cry it out loud
tonight, i'll pour it all out
i know, i have to get this over with
coz i promise myself, tomorrow
tomorrow, i'll live
there's no reason to keep the pain
there's no reason to cry again
but tonight i have to bear in mind
tonight should be the last time
that's why
tonight, i'll cry it out loud
tonight, i'll pour it all out
i know, i have to get this over with
coz i promise myself, tomorrow
tomorrow, i'll live
I wrote this for someone very special to me.
I wrote this to give her some sort of inspiration. She was so down that time.
I wanted to give her something to lift her spirit up, to give her a push to end her misery.
I hope she found some meaning in what i wanted to tell her through this poem.
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Listen... I'm Quiet...
"Hey, sungit!", asked taray.
"Hey", I answered back, with a blank face.
"Sungit mo naman!", replied taray in retaliation.
I just smiled back.
"Bakit ba ang sungit mo?"
"Ako? Masungit? hindi ah!"
"Wala ka kseng kibo dyan. Ayaw mo pa mamansin."
Again, i just answered with a smile.
"Ewan sa yo! Gulo mo!", taray said with frustration.
"Ako magulo? Hindi ha! Tahimik lang ako ngayon."
"Eh bakit ka tahimik?", taray seemed irritated.
"Wala lang. Gusto ko lang.", i said smiling.
"Ewan sa yo! Bahala ka! Galit ako sa yo! Tse!"
"Huh!?"
Taray left.
I went on with what i'm busy with.
This is a frequent scene for me. There are just days that i prefer to be quiet. There's no particular reason, and it's for no purpose at all. I just like to give my self some quiet moment. It's a time for me to relax my mind.
But often times, other people think that i have a problem or that i'm ignoring them. Well, sometimes its true, but most of the time it's not. So, how would you know when's when? Easy, talk to me. More often than not, i'll talk back the way i talk during any other day. If i do so otherwise, leave me alone for a while, that means i want to be with just me.
Why am i like that? I don't know. I'm just like that. I just choose not to speak. I just choose to keep quiet. I still talk, i still laugh, but i'm quiet. I mingle, I blend. But i'm quiet.
You don't have to do anything. Just let me do my thing. I'm cool. There's nothing wrong with me. I just want to be quiet.
"the brightness of the light is inviting
promising the mind clarity,
the heart, purity
but i choose the peacefulness of the night
and the calmness of the dark
for the light blinds me,
coz its the only thing i see
whereas in the dark, though i can't see
my senses are sharp
and my mind's open wholly"
"Hey", I answered back, with a blank face.
"Sungit mo naman!", replied taray in retaliation.
I just smiled back.
"Bakit ba ang sungit mo?"
"Ako? Masungit? hindi ah!"
"Wala ka kseng kibo dyan. Ayaw mo pa mamansin."
Again, i just answered with a smile.
"Ewan sa yo! Gulo mo!", taray said with frustration.
"Ako magulo? Hindi ha! Tahimik lang ako ngayon."
"Eh bakit ka tahimik?", taray seemed irritated.
"Wala lang. Gusto ko lang.", i said smiling.
"Ewan sa yo! Bahala ka! Galit ako sa yo! Tse!"
"Huh!?"
Taray left.
I went on with what i'm busy with.
This is a frequent scene for me. There are just days that i prefer to be quiet. There's no particular reason, and it's for no purpose at all. I just like to give my self some quiet moment. It's a time for me to relax my mind.
But often times, other people think that i have a problem or that i'm ignoring them. Well, sometimes its true, but most of the time it's not. So, how would you know when's when? Easy, talk to me. More often than not, i'll talk back the way i talk during any other day. If i do so otherwise, leave me alone for a while, that means i want to be with just me.
Why am i like that? I don't know. I'm just like that. I just choose not to speak. I just choose to keep quiet. I still talk, i still laugh, but i'm quiet. I mingle, I blend. But i'm quiet.
You don't have to do anything. Just let me do my thing. I'm cool. There's nothing wrong with me. I just want to be quiet.
"the brightness of the light is inviting
promising the mind clarity,
the heart, purity
but i choose the peacefulness of the night
and the calmness of the dark
for the light blinds me,
coz its the only thing i see
whereas in the dark, though i can't see
my senses are sharp
and my mind's open wholly"
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Silence
"Brightly uttered thoughts touch the deepest of minds
but unspoken words pierce through deeper than shallowly spoken ones"
What does silence mean?
What does it want to tell?
Does it mean you have something to say? Or does it mean you just want to be quiet?
Does it mean you want attention? or does it mean, "just leave me alone"?
Silence can mean anything. Or it can just mean nothing.
It can carry so much meaning, but it can just be an empty feeling.
It can just be you, not wanting to speak,
or it may mean you're not speaking because you want to tell something.
Silence might be a self defense.
To hide you from things you want to stay away from.
But silence can betray you,
for others tend to misunderstand
what a closed lip is trying to keep behind.
but unspoken words pierce through deeper than shallowly spoken ones"
What does silence mean?
What does it want to tell?
Does it mean you have something to say? Or does it mean you just want to be quiet?
Does it mean you want attention? or does it mean, "just leave me alone"?
Silence can mean anything. Or it can just mean nothing.
It can carry so much meaning, but it can just be an empty feeling.
It can just be you, not wanting to speak,
or it may mean you're not speaking because you want to tell something.
Silence might be a self defense.
To hide you from things you want to stay away from.
But silence can betray you,
for others tend to misunderstand
what a closed lip is trying to keep behind.
The Birth of my Sanctuary
sanc·tu·ar·y
1. a shelter from danger or hardship
2. A place of refuge or asylum.
From the definition of sanctuary given above, you'll might as well have an idea why i gave birth to this blog.
"hear me, i want to speak
listen to me talk
or better yet not
for what i might say is just non-sense
blabber as you might see it
but these words mean much to me
for these words
are what defines me.."
There are just times when you need to voice out what you feel., you need to have an outlet to pour your emotions into. Listening ears sometimes are just not enough to satisfy this need. You want to talk, yet you don't want others listening. You want to speak, but you don't want anyone to hear you.
Pen and paper, or should i say a keyboard and a text area, seems the appropriate other way to get around this feeling.
"..thoughts overflow my mind
the brain offers such a tiny space
words just seep out through my head
Sometimes there are just too many things to say,
too many words to speak,
but these words just go to waste.
You speak, you talk
without thinking of the importance
of what your words wants to say."
This will not only serve as an outlet. This will be an extension of my memory. The brain will run out of space, and surely push out some memories to make space for new ones. Some of theses memories you want to cherish, but won't be able to if the mind throws it out of its storage.
"today, a new world of me is born
a world where i can wander freely,
and roam around in liberty
speak of what i want to speak,
and say what i want to say
i won't care what others will see of me
coz this world will be my refuge
my sanctuary..."
1. a shelter from danger or hardship
2. A place of refuge or asylum.
From the definition of sanctuary given above, you'll might as well have an idea why i gave birth to this blog.
"hear me, i want to speak
listen to me talk
or better yet not
for what i might say is just non-sense
blabber as you might see it
but these words mean much to me
for these words
are what defines me.."
There are just times when you need to voice out what you feel., you need to have an outlet to pour your emotions into. Listening ears sometimes are just not enough to satisfy this need. You want to talk, yet you don't want others listening. You want to speak, but you don't want anyone to hear you.
Pen and paper, or should i say a keyboard and a text area, seems the appropriate other way to get around this feeling.
"..thoughts overflow my mind
the brain offers such a tiny space
words just seep out through my head
Sometimes there are just too many things to say,
too many words to speak,
but these words just go to waste.
You speak, you talk
without thinking of the importance
of what your words wants to say."
This will not only serve as an outlet. This will be an extension of my memory. The brain will run out of space, and surely push out some memories to make space for new ones. Some of theses memories you want to cherish, but won't be able to if the mind throws it out of its storage.
"today, a new world of me is born
a world where i can wander freely,
and roam around in liberty
speak of what i want to speak,
and say what i want to say
i won't care what others will see of me
coz this world will be my refuge
my sanctuary..."
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