searching for the answer...

Why her, who just came out of nowhere?
why her, whom i don't know much about?
Why choose someone, i'm not sure i'll get along with smoothly?
Why did i choose that someone?

I know she came into my life so suddenly. I honestly didn't expect things to go where i am right now. I am also asking myself when, where and how it all started. Things happened so fast that i didn't have time to absorb and reflect upon the events that happened. I'm finding it hard to answer when asked with the questions of why her. It's not that i am not sure of my feelings. It's not that i am not sure where i am right now. It's because my mind is still trying to keep up with the things that's happened and still happening.

But, why her, really? I started thinking. I went back to the very first day i started being close to her. I looked at how we ended up being with each other.

One thing that stood out was the satisfaction and fulfillment i always have whenever i am able to make someone happy. It has always been fulfilling for me whenever i see that i can make someone smile and laugh. And there, comes the feeling of appreciation. I'm sure everybody will be touched if one sees another person appreciate the little things he do. The appreciation she showed really touched my heart. Seeing her smile in happiness everytime i was near made me happy. It created a very satisfied feeling inside me.
She grew close to my heart. I saw that she was so much better when she can smile and laugh genuinely. It slowly grew on me that i hated seeing her frowning. I didn't want seeing her sad. It saddened me when i don't see her smiling.

Hours and hours of talking gave me the chance to know more about her. I was able to listen to every word she said, every thought she sent, and every feelings she showed. I connected with her. I know she felt the same way. There was never a dull moment when we talk. Even in silence, i know our minds are conversing with each other. Its such a nice feeling having someone you could talk to for hours and yet feel that you've only been with each other for a very short time. Time would pass without us knowing or noticing that time is leaving us behind.

I also felt that she needed someone who can give her the happiness she's looking for. I felt that she has always been looking for that true happiness. The happiness of having someone she could call her own. I believed then that i can lead her to what she's looking for. I could see her brighten up whenever i'm around. i could make her smile. I could make her laugh. Despite her pain, i could see her showing hints of cheering up. i knew i was slowly lifting her up from where she was slumped. that's when i realized i'm starting to fall for her.

I once promised myself, that i won't fall in love again until i'm sure that it would be the last. I wanted to have someone who can think the same. i wanted someone who has the same sentiments in life with me, the same aspirations, the same dreams. someone who can share her life with me, be it happy moments or sad ones. i wanted someone whom i can talk and listen to the whole day without getting bored. someone i can spend the rest of my life with.

I found it in her.

Now that i'm with her, i'm slowly understanding why i chose to be with her. And i know my decision will not be a wrong one because i can see in her eyes that she's happy. And i know that we're both aiming for the same things in life. and that we're both happy in each other's arms. and that we're sure that we'll remain with each other for the rest of our life.

she came into my life so sudden
Before, she was just someone i pass by
Without as little as a hello or a hi
A weak smile
is the best i gave or recieved from her
She was, as the saying goes,
just another face in the crowd.
Never did i imagine that one day
that some day
she'll become a part of my life