Monday, June 06, 2005

daydreaming

Five in the morning. I'm battling with myself, resisting the urges to just lay there close my eyes and feel the soft sheets against my back. I have to get up, even if its against my will.

I turned to the opposite side of the bed, and there beside me, as she always is, having that very innocent look and that very lovely face. Waking up with the sight of her can't be beat by anything. It's the most spectacular feeling i've ever felt.

I could spend the whole morning just staring at her. But i have to get up. This is her day. We have what we call a "royalty" day. You spend the day being the king/queen, if its your scheduled day. We do this only once a month, and today happens to be her day. So i have to get up and start serving my queen.

I sat up, looked at her one final time, gave her a light kiss (just a small touch of the lips to her forehead, since i don't want to wake her up yet), and started uncovering myself from the sheets. I reached for my slippers under the bed, and started for the restroom. I walked as silently as i can. Though the door to the bathroom is just a few paces away from the bed, it seemed to me like a mile away. It's like walking clandestinely to an imaginary target, trying your best to do it with complete stealth in order not to be noticed by anything around.

I finished my morning rituals as quickly as possible and as fast as i can so that i can start preparing breakfast for my queen. I headed to the door of our room and went down the stairs to our kitchen. Its still dark, the sun does not rise until six am during this month.

First off is for me to have a cup of coffee, to give me a little perk. I just realized, it was quite cold, so the coffee would help me to warm up a bit.

I went to the fridge to get some eggs and the ham i bought yesterday before we got home. I had trouble finding the pan i'll use for cooking, but found it anyway after several minutes of opening and closing cabinet doors. I still have a difficult time memorizing where everything is hidden, but i'm sure i'll get used to knowing where to find anything i need.

I took a sip of my coffee before starting to cook the egg and the ham. I also took out the bread slices we've had since two days ago, and placed two of them in the toaster. I browsed through the mail we got yesterday as i waited for the egg and ham and toasts to cook. We weren't able to go through the mail last night since we got home very late and tired.

The toasts are done, as well as the first of the two eggs. The ham's still cooking, as i placed the second batch of slices in the toaster. I took another sip of coffee then went to tidy up the place a little. I finished cooking before i got halfway through my coffee. I was also done tidying up around. I set-up the breakfast tray and prepared my queen's breakfast. I have some instant fruit juice to come along with her toast, egg and ham.

I went upstairs with the breakfast treat for my queen. When i entered the door. I saw her there, still curled up in bed, the way i left her earlier. She's still there staring at me innocently, with pillows encased in her arms, and the sheets down to her waist.

As i laid down the breakfast tray on the table beside the bed, i can't stop thinking how lucky i am having her as my "queen". I'm so thankful she's with me here right now. Waking up with her every morning gives me such a feeling of awe, and exhilaration. It makes me smile every morning i see her staring right back at me, wearing that innocent smile. It really completes your day even before it starts. I won't trade that feeling with any other feeling.

I just sat beside her. watching her sleep through the rest of the early morning. i decided against waking her up for breakfast. I decided to just sit there and watch her sleep, and spend the rest of the morning thinking how lucky i am waking up beside the most wonderful person, and the most precious part of my life, my queen, my wife.

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