falling into a pit

i was so scared
i have no idea what to do
or how to escape this
i know its because of me
i know its from my own doing
i dug myself a hole
a hole, though easy to escape
will remain a hole
left there waiting
for even a little wrong move i make
ready to trap me in it
with no escape
with no getting out of
it will forever be there
a black spot
in a seemingly perfect surrounding
one bad step
and i'll fall to that pit again
i know
i have to rid my life of that hole
but i also know
that it would be near impossible
i just hope i can be somewhere
some place far away from it
to avoid it
to escape the fact that
i can still fall into it
i should be cautious
i should guard every step i take
i should not be care-free in what i do
i should always be at-guard against myself
this place could be filled with dark spots
but i'll do my best
to make the clean spots stand out
the hole would remain there
forever reminding me how i dug it
how i made it
it will always be there telling me
that though i think everything's okay
there's still that remote possibility
that i will once again step through it
making the same wrong step
and once again trap me in there
but now without escape